I was an utter pessimist. A couple of years back, when my friend asked me "Dude, is this glass half full or half empty?" I replied, " Where's the glass?" I was refusing to see the problems in front of me. I was avoiding them. Dont you know that he's a fool who plays it cool by making his world a little colder....... I kept humming this line, dunno where i heard this. But that sort of described me prefectly.
But this world is a pretty interesting place. If She sees you slacking around, not facing your problems, ignoring your tears, she will force them out of you. And that comes when you least expect it. It was a year back when all of my problems overwhlemed me. And clouded me. Cornered me. They forced me into a showdown.
I know my problems were cliched. I know my problems were too trivial. But I am a Piscean. I always embrace my problems much more than any one of you would. I like to wallow in my problems before trying to do something. This was a bad habit and I had no intention to get rid of it...
These problems started affecting me mentally and physically. I was a mental mess. My self-confidence level was at an all time low. It had got so worse that at one point of time I went for weeks before watching myself in the mirror. I had lost courage to actually get down alone and travel any where. I felt people judging me. I actually felt people laughing behind my backs as I went. I lost interest in everything. My poems reflected that as they slid into the Gothic Genre. I spewed out poem after poem everyday.
Physically I was hit too. Stress levels shooted. I was put on sedatived which actually put me to sleep while walking. I started losing weight. I lost 25 kgs in a span of less than 2 months.
I was unable to cope up with my problems. This continued for a year after which I decided enough was enough. I took one step which suddenly jerked me back into what I used to be before. Trust me, I will never regret that decision.

I read a nice little poster in my college that read "Literary Arts" I never knew these two words would mean so much.

Okay. One disclaimer - I love writing.

LA is for our college festival. It was huge thing and I realised it that day I saw how many people were working for it. Thousands of people cracking stones and banging heads to make it a success. Enough about the fest, I wanted to dedicate this blog to my committee.

At first I thought it would be something to keep me busy. Something to keep me distracted from my problems. Well it did do that. And amazingly, much much more.
Let me describe this group of mine-

Malavika. She is one tall girl. The first time I met her in front of the commerce wing, I realised she was a Southie. She briefed me about LA that day and after that I met her a few days later. She is one girl who gets so excited talking about LA especially when she is breifing the commitee. Its like her eyes light up and suddenly her eye-shadows look duller :P
She looks extremely serious but when she is joking around, she leaves everyone in splits. But when she is serious she does send a chill down my spine. Things I noticed first about her were her eye- shadows, her nail-polish ( she has the most weird and interesting designs on her nails) and her silver heart chain. The best part about her is that no one ever feels like they are with their HOD. She's one of us... and GOD BLESS HER for giving me the Roald Dahl book- I had been searching for tht for years!!!

Neha. A buddy Piscean. LA would be no where without her. She is this anchor for LA. SHe knows how to get her things done. She is down to earth, in your face.... well from what I know of her. She writes very well. And I am in awe for her ideas... I was always hoping Graveyard Calling would work out :P She is just like a Piscean- she will strain herself to the limit. She looks so busy all the time that everyone of us get energy just from watching her :) Trust me, no fooling around when there's work and when its time to fool around, well you'll have to be with her to see that :)

Suchana. (read Preity Zinta) She is one character out of a story book. :P. Always peepy, happy, bubbling around, smiling... See when you're down all you need to do is be in a fifty km radius around her :P Outspoken and rightly so...

Prateeksha. She is the quintessential Fresher in college. Always smiling. Ok the first thing that comes up in my mind is her jingle :P You have a long way to go.... And yes there's an amazing writer inside you, dun let that go to waste. She writes really well... Yea and one common interest we share - we love hoodies !!!! A perfect candidate for Jingles. One heck of a cartoon ! :P Rock on :P

Siddharth. He resembles my brother to a frighteneing degree. Sorry for hitting you sometimes playfully, u remind a lot like my brother. Amazing writer and comes up wid great ideas. A great guy to be with. I have decided I will teach him stuff about college life :P and he owes me Gurudakshina!!!!

Meeti. Again the quintessential college Fresher. So full of energy all the time. A very very innocent voice. And a great writer. And extremely considerate considering I have still not given her her book back :P Trust me I will!!!! Always running... I have rarely seen her walk slowly :)

Disha. Number 6. Good writer. Good on ideas. Extremely low on confidence. Extremely. The loudest note she can reach wont even be enough to scare a caterpillar. Cannot differentiate when she is whispering or shouting. Eternally hungry ! Eternally sleepy! Again, number 6. :P Says it all.

Aayushi. The most interesting character. Another buddy Piscean. Reads Signatures extremely well. Probably is a Dealer in a Casino because you should have seen her eyes shine when she was coming up with rules for Off Beats and Aces! Very very friendly. (read - Piscean :P) Always helping others, trust me I have seen very very few do this. Her Catch Phrase which i remember - Wait , wait, wait, wait.......... nahi nahi nahi nahi go on..... :P :P :P